Wednesday, January 10, 2018

The End

This is a hard post to write, but it's time to write it.  I failed.  I failed to get my writing truly off the ground.  I failed to keep up the networking, popularity, and quality of my blog.  I didn't research to learn how to improve the blog itself.  Buffy Kennedy was a dream, but my bigger dream was children and I had two.  Now my focus needs to be on them.

Right now, they scream a lot and they learned that from me.  Right now, I don't engage enough with them so they're bored, and cranky all the time.  I'm not happy with or proud of the parent that I am.  I complain too much about everything and can't seem to make new friends or keep up the friendships I do have very.  I'm no happy with the person that I am.  To be honest, my husband isn't either and I certainly don't want that to grow. 

I have a LOT of work to do to improve myself and that has to take priority over everything else.  This will be my last post.  I would like to say for now, but I just don't know.  This is breaking my heart tremendously, but I spend so much time wanting to be on the computer or reading or writing, that I end up resenting my kids for requiring SO MUCH time and attention.  That's not fair or right. 

I'm currently in a prison of my own making in a variety of ways, and frequently fantasize about suicide despite medication.  It's not something I'll do for several reasons, but the mindset in itself needs to change.  So now it's crunch time and I will be doing some fake it till I make it, but it's all necessary.

Thank you to all my readers, new and old.  I hope to bring this dream back to life one day, but all I can say is time will tell.  So, at this time, I say goodbye.

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

BLOG TOUR: Bleu Balls by Tara Lain

“Bleu Balls” By Tara Lain Blog Tour 1/9/2018 – 1/12/18

Identical twins. Unique love stories. 

Bleu Balls
(Balls to the Wall Series #7)
By Tara Lain

Double trouble. The McMillan twins, Robin and Bobby, are renowned for their talents—both as fine artists and for thrilling the various men who catch their eyes. As different in style and personality as their DNA is identical, they’re nonetheless best friends who divide and conquer, with Robin doing the serious painting and Bobby adding the sunny salesmanship.

But when their most important client decides Bobby must wield the paintbrush, the brothers revert to childhood tactics and switch places. Then along comes Micah, a handsome doctor who’s attracted to Bobby but invites Robin out to try to please his homophobic brother, and Paolo, the pain-in-the-butt client who thinks he’s wooing Bobby when he’s actually after Robin. Paolo harbors his own hidden pain that weirdly intersects with Robin’s, but pride and privacy conspire to produce what will either be a masterpiece—or end up as Dogs Playing Poker.

Title:  Bleu Balls
Series:  Balls to the Wall
Book #: 7
Author:  Tara Lain
Approximate Book Length:  264 Pages
Recommended Reader Age:  18+
Sexual Content:  Explicit


I think we've met the twins in a previous book, but I can't remember for sure. Regardless, they are two strong and loveable caracters. Bobby seems like he's just all bubble and charm on the surface, but he has depth. On the flip side, Robin seems so very dark, but he's got his own light that shines in a different way. Paulo and Micah are also very different in "matching" ways and watching them connect with the twins is enthralling. I kept expecting awkwardness and heartbreak at every turn, and it was just endearing instead. I do have to say that while I loved all the characters, I think Robin was my favorite. My heart just really went out to him in particular and while I enjoyed the whole story, it's him that lingers in my mind.

Bottom Line:

Bleu Balls is a fun and very complex read. Loveable characters and sparks flying make sore a great addition to this series!


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“Hey, gorgeous, want to dance?”

Bobby looked up at the attractive guy who’d been eyeing him for the last hour. “Oh, I don’t know—”

“Come on, Bobby, go. Go!” Rodney pushed Bobby out of the chair.

He smiled, but it took some effort. “Okay, so I guess yes.” He followed the man’s trim ass in nice summer-wool slacks toward the tiny dance floor in the lounge at the Rose. Jerry and his honey, Mick, were already dancing. The two big firefighters took up more than their share of the available boogie space, but they looked so happy it made Bobby tear up.

The guy turned and pulled Bobby into his arms. Clearly he intended to lead. Okay with me. “I’m Aaron, by the way.” The guy had nice hazel eyes and carefully brushed brown hair.


He started a not-very-complex box step. “You’re an artist, aren’t you?”

“Yes, how did you know?”

“I saw you at the Sawdust. I really like your stuff. Very unique.”

“Thank you.” Come on, be charming. “What do you do?”

“Stockbroker. Let me know if you need any investment tips.”

Bobby laughed. “Believe me, artists need tips on keeping their rent paid, although I’ll admit, we’re having a good summer.”


“Me and my brother. We paint together.”

“Oh. Interesting. Keeping it in the—holy shit!”

Bobby looked up at Aaron and followed his line of sight to the door—where, sure enough, Robin had just walked in. Bobby waggled his fingers and called over the piped-in music. “Hi, dear.”

Robin waved back.

Aaron said, “But you two are identical.”

“Yes, of course. We’re the McMillan twins.”

Bobby felt Aaron react—somewhere between a jerk and a laugh.

“What?” Bobby looked up into a face that had been pleasant and now leered.

“Fuck, why didn’t you tell me you were Double Trouble?”

Bobby frowned. “Was I supposed to?”

“Shit, yes. I mean, what does it take to get some backroom action from you two? Hell, I can pay.”

“Pay?” Bobby pressed his hands against Aaron’s chest and shoved. “Get your hands off me, you pervert.”


Bobby turned his tail and flipped it back to the table—but his insides rolled with anger and nausea.

Robin saw his face and sprang up. “What’s wrong? What happened?”

“Nothing I don’t deserve. He saw you and realized we were Double Trouble. He said he’d like to pay us.” Robin clenched his fists, but Bobby put a hand on his arm. “You can’t blame him for getting the wrong idea.”

“Oh? Watch me.” Robin stared pugnaciously across the dance floor.

The Balls to the Wall Series

Volley Balls
Bk #1

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Fire Balls 
Bk #2

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Beach Balls
Bk #3

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Snow Balls
Bk #4

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FAST Balls
Bk #5

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High Balls
Bk #6

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About the Author

Tara Lain writes the Beautiful Boys of Romance in LGBT erotic romance novels that star her unique, charismatic heroes. Her first novel was published in January of 2011 and she’s now somewhere around book 32. Her best-selling novels have garnered awards for Best Series, Best Contemporary Romance, Best Paranormal Romance, Best Ménage, Best LGBT Romance, Best Gay Characters, and Tara has been named Best Writer of the Year in the LRC Awards. In her other job, Tara owns an advertising and public relations firm. She often does workshops on both author promotion and writing craft.  She lives with her soul-mate husband and her soul-mate dog near the sea in California where she sets a lot of her books.  Passionate about diversity, justice, and new experiences, Tara says on her tombstone it will say “Yes”!

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Wednesday, January 3, 2018

REVIEW: High Balls by Tara Lain


Though only twenty-six, single father Theodore Walters lives with his head in the clouds and his feet firmly planted in reality. At the center of his life is Andy, his seven-year-old son, with whom he shares no DNA, though nobody—including his religious-fanatic in-laws—knows that, and Theodore will do anything to keep them from finding out. Theodore works hard to get his PhD and the tenure and salary that might follow to make a better life for Andy—but the head of his department thinks his dissertation on Jane Austen and romance novels is frivolous.

Theodore’s carefully planned life goes off the rails when he walks into a popular Laguna Beach bar and meets the bartender, “Snake” Erasmo, a pierced and tattooed biker who sends Theodore’s imagination—and libido—soaring. Snake has even more secrets than Theodore and couldn’t be a less “appropriate” match, but he might be the only guy with the skills to show Theodore that happily ever after is for real.

Title:  High Balls
Series:  Balls to the Wall
Book #: 6
Author:  Tara Lain
Approximate Book Length:  187 Pages
Recommended Reader Age:  18+
Sexual Content:  Moderate


This was sweet and fun. Theodore is a really great parent and cool teacher too. He's got some anxiety, but in his position, who wouldn't? I really felt for Theodore and Andy with their situations. Poor Andy with his grandparents, and poor Theodore with the Andy situation and his work situation. They had a rough time for a while.

Snake definitely has some secrets, but they come out in the best way. Snake is nothing short of amazing with Andy who just about steals the show to begin with. Theodore is somewhat of a walking stereotype, but Snake is a walking contradiction and the combination is spellbinding.

We do see characters from past books in bits and pieces which is great. My only problem was that with this being book six, and it's been a while since I've read any in this series, I had to search my memory banks for who everybody was. The only ones I always remember are Rod and Hunter who have the most prominent supporting roles - yay!

Bottom Line:

High Balls is an awesome addition to an already wonderful series. It's relatable and endearing and I just loved it.